Love
I remember you. you're impossible to forget although the colours, smells and sounds of you have faded. some moments are clear like the lake in the morning when you can see all the way to the bottom where the memories live alongside those old logs and other dead things.
i have pictures. most of them are fine tuned in their focus, probably more so than they were when they happened if they indeed happened that way at all. yet, that is how i remember you.
i remember you when god speaks through me, emptying my eyes and moving my soul. some times you come on the wings of eagles perched at the lookout points of my life. here or three thousand miles away is all the same. you travel as fast as anything i can see or believe. this makes it so much easier to remember you.
i remember how the years fly even when they're crawling and how you are always frozen in my mind. i weep for the little boy you whose face i loved even when i hated its mouth for speaking.
i laugh at the young man growing through a world that was the same but somehow impossibly different from the one i was learning. i yearn for the arms and their hands four years younger but ten times stronger and i pity myself for one last word or maybe two. it's okay for remembering to hurt.
it's okay for it still to hurt because you were a real part of my life when you walked here among me and our people and you are real in death for the wonders you help me to see even when the pain and tears overcome me. you give me the comfort because i know that things are as they have been since forever and will be when my time comes and there is someone left to remember me.
i remember you and i wouldn't stop for anything.
09/04/01
A million miles away
used to be so far
but now the world has changed
can it remind us who we are?
and that this life is sacred?
a million times a day
life can be so hard
we struggle just to find our place
without being torn apart
by the differences that still seem to separate us
a million lives are changed
by a faceless hatred
evil has its hour
but love will have its day
love will find its way
but in the war rooms
where our futures now are found
the evil deeds of human beings abound
and it seems all that i can do
is sit and watch it
as we get wrapped up in its ways
and caught in
this feeling that i've never really known
but in glimpses of the future that i'm shown
we wait at home
while the world just slips away
the one thing i would like to know
the one thing i would like to say
is that we're only here to grow
and it's a shame to look away
09/12/2001
